Archive for October, 2008

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my bimbotic hippo baby :)

October 30, 2008

this photo is from ages ago as you can tell with my reasonably long(er) hair, but…
yay i’ll finally be able to kiss your cheeks without you disallowing me to. :D

evidence’s up and you cannot back out on your word already okay part-time girlfriend!
HAHA.
the little things that make my day at work.
love love. :D

was so amused by the conversation that lynnette stared at me weirdly and said “why are you so happy today! you look like you’re delirious in your own little world.”
HAHA if only you knew, woman. if only you knew. :P

p.s.
yes, i’m blogging at work.. AGAIN.
have nothing to do since i’ve cut what 2 sections of the newspaper i have and the rest is still held hostage by my manager.
and my supervisor’s damn cute i swear!
asked her for work to do and she looked at me and….
POUTED with a sad face!
HAHAHAHAAHA. took all my effort not to end up laughing wheezing at her face.

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back… after 2 days. =.=

October 29, 2008

okay i decided that there are tonnes of people in worse shape than i’m in so yours truly shall stop being a prick and whining about how miserable i feel.

manicure therapy with lynnette (again) after work was really… therapeutic.

but i swear megavideo, tudou, and 56 have a thing against me.
i’ve been trying to load SEASON 1 EPISODE 1 of ugly betty since sunday and all refuse to load beyond 7minutes (or less) for me!
need my bimbo shows – gossip girl season 2… HURRY UP AND FINISH SHOWING/UPLOADING ALREADY.

‘kay need to sleep.

p.s.
sheereen i suddenly caught sight of pictures of us together AND I MISS YOU. :c

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he patted my head and said, “it’s okay to cry”…

October 27, 2008

and so i did.

you wrap your arms around yourself and try to stifle the sobbing gasps.
until that one fateful day when things fell apart and he was there.
tried to mask the emotions, but still he could tell.
he always could.
the first person to ever lend me shoulders to cry on, and it felt safe, safer than i’ve ever felt in my life.
i need your shoulders now, will you lend them to me again?

can’t let them out, gotta keep them inside.
takes too much strength to hold it in and it’s so tempting to just give in and surrender.
the emotional roller coaster has been so tiring, and it has been making my already moodless week even worse.
but it recently just hit me that all this nonsense boils down to one thing – my annual depression period prior to the birthday.
and so i’ve decided that maybe it’s time for me to be a hermit for the next two weeks – save what tiny readership i have from being affected by my ridiculous emoing.
if you want to talk, you know where to find me.

xoxo,
alexis

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i got it from my mama

October 26, 2008


butter factory last night, though not that great, took away the emo-ness that kept surfacing for the past week.
it was kinda stressful though, once we stepped in there was this overwhelming sense of getting stared at by everyone – like, the guys were all just there to take up space on the dance floor and ogle at girls, searching for their prey.
taboo and play for me please!

i needed the hangout though, needed it so badly.
emotions have been pretty hard to keep under control the past week, and although i like alone-time, too much of it merely serves to make the mood swings worse than terrible.
cleared the head up a little, and now i can’t wait for 8 nov to roll around for the meet-up with the besties (with the exception of christine who’s far away in the land of taipei)!

if that’s the best you can offer, then perhaps it just isn’t meant to be.

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Protected: when morning comes, reality intrudes

October 25, 2008

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Protected: a kiss that can’t renew

October 24, 2008

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October 24, 2008

remember, remember.
we’re all in this world alone.
we’re all in this world alone.
we’re all in this world alone.

ignore me,
for my mood took a sudden fall to the doldrums.

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the tale of a stupid, angry old man

October 22, 2008

lynnette (my colleague) and i met this really annoying, inconsiderate old man on the train just now and talking to him so totally destroyed our extremely relaxed and destressed mood after the manicure! :c
you know how boarding the train at city hall around 6 – 8ish is always hellish cuz EVERYONE is rushing home and it’s just maximum urgh trying to squeeze into the train?
well, this fucker (lets call him shortie) is quite a classic case of the ubiquitous discourteous singaporean.
there was still space inside the carriage and he refused to move in… and what made it worse was that the stupid “doors closing” thing was sounding already and we soooo had to squeeze into the train!
so lynnette innocently went, “these people don’t know how to move in one ah.”
and i, too, (not so) innocently replied, “yeah, so inconsiderate.”
and shortie turned around and glared at us and said, “yah, so what?”
WTF RIGHT!? YAH I KNOWWWWW. GEEZ.
annoyed, i acted all shocked and said (in my atas my-enunciation-is-better-than-yours english which i am blessed to be able to put on from time to time), “but i didn’t say i was talking about you, did i?”
shortie mumbled something, and ended with, “you think i’m taking the train for free ah?”
!!! so, honey, you think just because you pay the (rather expensive) $1.60++ to take the train (as we all do), you are entitled to ignore the other commuters who have the same right to get onto the train?
but being the extremely sweet and nice girl i am, i merely retorted with a “oh, must be guilty conscience.”
shortie continued grumbling and that sulky face he gave when lynnette told me not to waste my breath on him was classic….. of a typical angry old man. the kind who’s so angry and miserable because no one loves him and who’ll try so desperately to get attention (in this case, negative one, since the people around us were watching the short (and not very sweet) exchange).
oh please, go get a life – say, look into the mirror and tell yourself how much you love yourself since no one else will say that to you. then again, being the pompous, low self-esteemed (goes with his height i guess, since he’s like, one frigging head shorter than me) ass you are, you prolly already do that everyday.
*shrugs*

which is why i say, why the hell does the government want more people to come to singapore!
it’s not like we’re super pleasant people to stay with and all that – foreigners should stay away and leave singapore to it’s 6million citizens.
our public transportations are already so packed that everyone’s like squashed sardine in a can (with inconsiderate commuters who refuse to move to the center of the carriages), and they always stall.
what’s with wanting to hit a 10million population – hello government, if you read this can you please take public transport more often before coming up with such goals?
you wanna make the move to being a green city – which means less cars on the road; and fewer cars on the road equals more people on public transport… and you know what i’m getting to right!
be more realistic already, and stop just looking at how a larger population, and more expatriates/tourists will help with our economy.

thankyouverymuch and i’m off to sleep.
goodnight.

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pain, pain, go away

October 21, 2008

i swear this sedentary lifestyle is killing me.
the stupid, throbbing pain in the lower back has wonderfully gotten worse.
the sinsehs suspect something to do with an injury to the nerve or yada (HAHA. there’s just something with me and nerves huh – like how the one on my thigh is so dead it doesn’t feel pain anymore (almost) regardless of who kicks – can’t the back trouble be like the thigh one!).
imagine walking like a penguin when you stand up after being seated for just a mere 5 minutes, and have that throbbing pain turn into a sharp one when you cough and your body jerks. so you lie down in the hope to relieve the ache… and that too, is a problem cuz you can’t turn without the fucking back hurting. =.=
now, that throb has cooperated so much and progressed so far such that my right leg feels damn numb when standing.
yay. alexis is so gonna turn into a useless fat blob soon – sit also cannot; stand also cannot… lie down also cannot.
i wanna go back for sunday trainings whenever i don’t have paixi! :c
can you please get well by yourself, back, such that i don’t have to spend money seeing the doctor cuz we are super cash-strapped now?
consider it a plea, thankyouverymuch – you’re making me really depressed. :/

date me out to cycle and kayak please people (that is, if you don’t mind being grossed out by the ugly marks on the back of my thigh)!

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strawberry beer

October 18, 2008


joel: “wtf dean you act cute for what. take picture with girl you stick the tongue out somemore.”



today was a great day (apart from when i was at work i swear my eyes were so tiny my colleague exclaimed “wah you read your newspapers until falling asleep ah! look at your eyes!” – what he didn’t say that i heard was “so tiny!”, k but whatever).
after work it was dinner with dean and joel teo cher chea!
missed them much much considering how we’ve all been too busy to go for trainings.
and joel has become sucha studious gentleman (except when his bitchiness rears its ugly head from time to time), it’s akin to something possessing him!
but oh well.

and after dinner we headed to united square to look for carrie, nigel and tim for some strawberry beer!
the colour was a prettyish pink, and it tasted pretty good… for the first few sips.
but after that it started tasting like jam mixed with beer… which isn’t very tantalising, if you can prolly already tell.
joel’s kilkenny was pretty darn good though – think it shall be my favourite beer from now on!

dean and joel left soon after and carrie, tim, nigel and i started talking about china, melamine, the economic recession, and the future of our world.
and my goodness, i realised we’ve become pretty darn intellectual ever since attachment because hey we’d never have had a conversation about such stuff before we started our internship!

okay know what?
my dad’s snoring really loudly and it’s tempting me to go sleep.
hopefully i wake up in time to make it to the asian civilisation museum with CZ tomorrow before heading to zen’s house. ROAR.
okay goodnight, need to go rest my tiny tiny miniscule eyes… and at the same time hopefully get rid of the puffiness of my face (totally going back to my pufferfish era… which i’d rather not visit anymore. ROAR).

BYEBYE.